So there was the horrible break up of last year (around May) when the guy broke up with me to be with his ex...
Then there was the guy who dated me and then told me that if he wanted a girlfriend I would totally be it, but he didn't want one...
...I honestly can't tell you which felt worse?? Both were pretty hard blows for me!!
So I had a hiatus from dating for awhile... 6 months to be exact...
Then I started dating a guy that I work with. It's a slow process... we are still dating, but we only really talk on the days that we see one another (AT WORK)!! We don't really talk outside of work unless I'm with him. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!!
Now, to top things off... I have ex-boyfriends telling me that I did nothing wrong when they broke up with me. (NOTE: This is not the only time this has happened... Had an ex tell me the same stuff last year and all have wanted to date me again.) This information would have been pleasant at the time of the break up. I could have saved a lot of time soul searching. I could have just chalked it up to them and not spent countless hours trying to figure out what I did wrong and when I crossed my boundaries. This information kind of pisses me off. I moved on, I figured out how to deal with it... and now I find out it was all in vain?!? Seriously???? I realize that I'm not going to really change. I'm a hopeless romantic and I love myself being that way. Now I have to just find the right guy that loves being doted on and that loves to dote on me!! It's probably not in my past... but I don't know what is in my future!!
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