Over a year ago I had my heart broken and I liberated myself by chopping off over 10 inches of my hair!! Most guys I date like my hair and it was oh-so nice to just chop it all off!! When he left me he broke my heart and and I knew that when she left him again that he would be back. Why I thought that, I don't know!! But after months and months of hanging on to the idea of being back with him... I decided to let go. I spent the better part of the summer just letting myself let him go. And tonight was the night that I let the last little bit of him go! Pictures... all of them are gone!! Gone, gone, gone!! I deleted them all off of my computer. All the cute pictures that I was smiling in, looking up at him with love in my eyes!! All the ones with his adorable smile! The ones that we're looking at one another with "the eyes." They are all GONE!!!!!! I can't express my excitement through a blog... but damn, it feels so good!!
Thank God for a delete button... and fire!! Cause I would totally be doing 'fire in a trash can' right about now if I didn't have the delete button on my computer!!
This is my summer and it's about to get interesting! I heard from Aaron (haven't talked to him all summer) and it was okay. I can't do the relationship thing with him cause I just didn't feel a spark, but maybe we can be friends!! Laddertheory.com says that is a death wish for all men... and I don't really care at this point in my life! I'm tired of feeling bad because I don't listen to my heart and listen to my stupid head instead!! Tonight I spent time with Brent, the first time since we stopped dating!! It wasn't bad... possibly a little awkward, but I expected that! He's the person that made me excited about dating again. BUT lately, I just wish I was half a continent away so that I could get to know an old friend a little more!! Instead I'm in Texas (coincidently where he wishes he was) where school starts in 2 weeks. Blegh!!
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